Finally, the day haf come. It's the 1st day of my exams. Had 2 papers in a day. Killing. Had 5 hrs of break in between. While reading thru my international notes, i almost fell asleep. Super tired. Lied on the bed at 11, thinking tt i was very tired cos i keep yawning while revising. Once again, i could not sleep. The last time i checked the clock, it's already 4. B4 i knew it, my bro woke up for sch n in 45 mins it's my turn for sch.
While typing, my eyelids r already half closed. But i wan to wait till my dad wakes up n haf a brief conversation wif him b4 sleeping.
I juz hoped tt i wun do too badly for today 2 papers. Macro shall b my main focus from tmr.
6th may come faster!!!!
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Sunday, April 26, 2009
18
Yesterday, went to atttend my cousin's 18th birthday party over at her hse. Din stay for long cos of exams coming soon. Initially i wasn't even supposed to go cos dad dun allow. Then dun how, we end up going again...
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Guilty
Today after lunching wif my parents at home, dad asked me whether i'm preparing well for exams. Hmm...I'm guilty. I mean i did study but not enuf. I juz dun like studying. My sis is oso having her 1st paper on the same day as me - 28th, but she had already started revising ages ago whereas for me i juz started tis week. Sometimes i really think i'm really plain lucky to b able to enter NUS, whereas for my sis who's way more hardworking than me, fumbled at the last moment n not being accepted. Hmm...Once we were fighting, she mentioned tt she really hate me for being an NUS student n she juz could not. She said she worked so hard unlike me. It's juz unfair.
I mean of course i'm angry after hearing her comments. I did studied really hard for A-levels. But after much thinking, i muz admit she's really a very hardworking person n i paled in comparison.
妈说不要被亲戚看不起，说父母能养他们，所以孩子不会读书也没关系。绝对不是！
虽说，我们读好书是为了自己，可是有很多时间，我们还不是要证明给别人看我们是可以的，才努力。又有几次是因为我们想让我们的父母称赞我们，为了让他们高兴，才努力呢？
I mean of course i'm angry after hearing her comments. I did studied really hard for A-levels. But after much thinking, i muz admit she's really a very hardworking person n i paled in comparison.
妈说不要被亲戚看不起，说父母能养他们，所以孩子不会读书也没关系。绝对不是！
虽说，我们读好书是为了自己，可是有很多时间，我们还不是要证明给别人看我们是可以的，才努力。又有几次是因为我们想让我们的父母称赞我们，为了让他们高兴，才努力呢？
Sunday, April 19, 2009
生日快乐，爸！
Pa's actual birthday is tmr, but since it's a mon n my bro had to go to sch, we bring forward it to today. Went over to East Coast to haf Seafood dinner at No Signboard Restaurant after bro's tuition. Woo...the food is fabulous especially their crabs n the fried 面线. Thou it's a bit on the ex side but it's totally worth it.
On the way back to carpark, i suddenly notice the signboard saying tt even on Sun we haf to put coupons. N my dad din realized it! Then we saw the summon people standing in front of our car. Ran all the way there, but too late le. He had already submitted our car no over. Wah, $30 gone.
On the way back to carpark, i suddenly notice the signboard saying tt even on Sun we haf to put coupons. N my dad din realized it! Then we saw the summon people standing in front of our car. Ran all the way there, but too late le. He had already submitted our car no over. Wah, $30 gone.
Went home n calebrate Dad's bdae wif a lychee martini cake, It would haf taste better if it's more chilled. But generally i find it nice! But 1 slice is sufficient if not the stomach is going to burst anytime!
Pics time!!!
喘口气
Since Wen live so near to me, so i ask her to come out n accompany for a while. Even a walk or a meal together is sufficient. Recently, i juz want to hear other ppl, myself, preferably juz a listener n not a talker.
But i feel much better after having a meal, even thou it's juz the mac at the Rivervale Plaza. Sufficient. Thks gal. N i really missed the rest of the gals - Man n Elaine!
But i feel much better after having a meal, even thou it's juz the mac at the Rivervale Plaza. Sufficient. Thks gal. N i really missed the rest of the gals - Man n Elaine!
Friday, April 17, 2009
又一阵的失落感
我真的是一只鸟笼的囚鸟。什么地方都不能去。我看过了，我最后一次跟朋友出去是7/4, 离现在已经有两个多星期了。在这两个星期里，就只是“学校，回家，学校，回家”烦透了，苦闷极了！我真的快要受不了。心头闷闷的。真的是没有一件事是顺心的。“血特！！”
So wanted to go to vivo today to celebrate bel's birthday. Even thou, b4 i asked my parents i already noe tt 99.9999% tt my plea will b rejected. But i still ask, hoping for tt 0.0000001% tt a miracle will happen. But the % is too small, so as expected i was rejected. Feeling damn frustrated!
Followed my dad to the nearby temple to pray. My dad juz wan to pray n noe whether now is a gd time for us to haf a change of environment by buying the Kovan Residence unit. Haiz...The 签turn out to b a 下签. So we can't buy n shall stick to the current one. I was hoping tt it will b a gd one to elevate my mood up a bit. But it's like a bucket of cold water had been poured on me. I was so sure tt the transaction will definitely take place cos my dad had already done his sums n he will haf no problem afording it. But then it turn out tt now isn't a gd time. YET.
有没有听过人家说过，人只要岁数遇到“9”这个号码，都会不顺心。刚才，爸就提到这一点，我觉得大有道理。就等吧！明年他就50了，希望还是有机会换个环境。有点迷信hor?但是不由得不信！
Thursday, April 16, 2009
真的很累！
I was totally knocked out today during the MRT ride home. Was too tired. Not been sleeping very well tis few days. I kept dreaming, but could not rmb a thing when i wake up. + my mind keep thinking of other stuff even when i'm lying on the bed. Told dad about it, n he said: Better dun b like pa, if not next time u will suffer. The last time during JC, i oso haf problems sleeping when i was in JC1, when sch juz started. I looked very badly tt my parents brought me to see a doctor.
I'm feeling very sleepy now.
I'm feeling very sleepy now.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Finally, It's back.
Dunno wad happen to my mio box yesterday. Not working at all. So i got no internet connection at all. Felt so uncomfortable without going online for a day. Oh no! I'm literally adicted to my laptop. Called the technician, they told me tt i got to wait till fri b4 if not i got to go paya lebar there to change the mio box myself! Dun even noe where the place is. No choice, but to wait.
Then today in the afternoon, while watching tv. Suddenly, doorbell rang. Weird! Tis time my parents aren't suppose to b home yet. Who could it b? Turn out to b the technician. But the mio box is so michevious! When the technician turn it on again, it's working very well. Luckily, it's still under warrenty.
Time really flies...Tmr will b the last day i go to sch for lesson b4 the semester comes to an end. It seems tt the sem is getting shorter n shorter as each sem passed. Which means exams is really round the corner.
Bel n candice bdae's coming. Bel's on tis coming fri n candice's next fri. How on earth m i supposed to ask my parents for permission. But i dun wan to miss it cos we've been friends for so long le n it takes a long time b4 we will see each other again...Hmm...muz think of some excellent plans!
Then today in the afternoon, while watching tv. Suddenly, doorbell rang. Weird! Tis time my parents aren't suppose to b home yet. Who could it b? Turn out to b the technician. But the mio box is so michevious! When the technician turn it on again, it's working very well. Luckily, it's still under warrenty.
Time really flies...Tmr will b the last day i go to sch for lesson b4 the semester comes to an end. It seems tt the sem is getting shorter n shorter as each sem passed. Which means exams is really round the corner.
Bel n candice bdae's coming. Bel's on tis coming fri n candice's next fri. How on earth m i supposed to ask my parents for permission. But i dun wan to miss it cos we've been friends for so long le n it takes a long time b4 we will see each other again...Hmm...muz think of some excellent plans!
Sunday, April 12, 2009
WOW!!!
Had western for our lunch together as a family in our little cosy hse. I can guarantee tt the food we haf is so much nicer than those sold outside. Haha...Was happy tt my parents complimented on the mash potato tt i make.
After lunch, we sat down to watch the tv. Felt tt my eyes r closing soon, think too comfortable le. Was bout to fall asleep when my little bro sae tt he's ready to go. Go??? Where?? For a moment, i was confused. Dinno tt time has passed so fast, It was already 4+. Time for his tuition. Little sis followed us cos we haf a mission to fulfil. Order Pa's cake. His bdae coming soon! Went over to Pine's Garden to order a lychee martini cake for him. Fully sponsered by my sis. Arh! Dun sae how come tis big sis din pay. Y let little sis pay. Cos i treated my dad last time when i received my salary for working as a phone operator. Since she's working now, so she pay lor. HAHA....
After tt, was bout to drive home, when my sis sae Let's go to the Kovan Residence showroom. Actually, i wanted to go take a look at the showroom on Sat, but i could not fnd it. I think i really cock eye. It's juz behind the mrt stn.
Anyway, both of us looked too young to b able afford to buy one, so the agents inside tot tt we r juz looking for our parents who's supposingly already inside. Till i look at 1 agent n she asked me whether i was looking for the showroom. She sae we looked really young. HAHA....
OOO...I juz loved the whole structure! The big balcony. I'm sure my parents will loved the Master bedroom cos it's big n the toilet is humongous wif a bathtub attached to it... Thou the other 2 bedrooms which my sis n i r going to stay in if we r gonna to buy it doesn't come wif a bathroom but i'm willing to forgive. I absolutely loved the place. 1 major plus point, once u get out of the side door, it's already mrt. Super convenient n Heartland mall is juz opposite!!!
I LOVED THE PLACE!!!!
After lunch, we sat down to watch the tv. Felt tt my eyes r closing soon, think too comfortable le. Was bout to fall asleep when my little bro sae tt he's ready to go. Go??? Where?? For a moment, i was confused. Dinno tt time has passed so fast, It was already 4+. Time for his tuition. Little sis followed us cos we haf a mission to fulfil. Order Pa's cake. His bdae coming soon! Went over to Pine's Garden to order a lychee martini cake for him. Fully sponsered by my sis. Arh! Dun sae how come tis big sis din pay. Y let little sis pay. Cos i treated my dad last time when i received my salary for working as a phone operator. Since she's working now, so she pay lor. HAHA....
After tt, was bout to drive home, when my sis sae Let's go to the Kovan Residence showroom. Actually, i wanted to go take a look at the showroom on Sat, but i could not fnd it. I think i really cock eye. It's juz behind the mrt stn.
Anyway, both of us looked too young to b able afford to buy one, so the agents inside tot tt we r juz looking for our parents who's supposingly already inside. Till i look at 1 agent n she asked me whether i was looking for the showroom. She sae we looked really young. HAHA....
OOO...I juz loved the whole structure! The big balcony. I'm sure my parents will loved the Master bedroom cos it's big n the toilet is humongous wif a bathtub attached to it... Thou the other 2 bedrooms which my sis n i r going to stay in if we r gonna to buy it doesn't come wif a bathroom but i'm willing to forgive. I absolutely loved the place. 1 major plus point, once u get out of the side door, it's already mrt. Super convenient n Heartland mall is juz opposite!!!
I LOVED THE PLACE!!!!
International
I think alot of my brain cells had died in the process of trying to solve International tut. SO HARD TO SOLVE!!! I dunno i've read the tb for how many times but i juz could not get the ans. Y m i so hardworking? Usually for tut, dunno juz skip lor. But tis time I'm suppose to present the ans together wif my group.
But luckily, in the end, tis 2 guys in my group - Benjamin and Chun Kit managed to solve the remaining ques. I did my part by solving question thou i'm not so sure the last 2 parts. Decide to post it up then realized tt chun kit had already posted his. Haiz....nvm. Take it as a revision.
But luckily, in the end, tis 2 guys in my group - Benjamin and Chun Kit managed to solve the remaining ques. I did my part by solving question thou i'm not so sure the last 2 parts. Decide to post it up then realized tt chun kit had already posted his. Haiz....nvm. Take it as a revision.
Friday, April 10, 2009
Patience
I heard a news from my dad. To me, of course i hope tt it will take place soon. But given tt my dad thinks alot, i should not put too much hope on it in case my dad decide not to execute it again...Hmm,....shouldn't sae wad is it 1st. When everything is finalized then will i sae it out. HAHA....
Now all i can do is to wait patiently....
Now all i can do is to wait patiently....
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Sleepy
Today is so hot! Thou it rains earlier on, but it does not seems to cool the weather. I'm feeling as thou i'm trapped in an oven.
Fell asleep juz now while watching tv at 7+. Damn tired, could not sleep the previous night. Lie on the bed at 12, but 1 still could not slp. Woke up to play some little games, to relieve myself from the stress n to make my eyes tired. Was already 2.30 when i stopped, but i still feel quite refreshed thou i keep yawning. Decide to go n slp, tossed around b4 i fell asleep. B4 i knew it, my alarm clock rang. Dang! I've got sch to attend. So feel like poning but got to hang up my labour assignment. Had difficulty doing it, need to ask around for help n luckily Kaiyan helped me to solve 1 of the ques. Hopefully it's correct.
Fell asleep juz now while watching tv at 7+. Damn tired, could not sleep the previous night. Lie on the bed at 12, but 1 still could not slp. Woke up to play some little games, to relieve myself from the stress n to make my eyes tired. Was already 2.30 when i stopped, but i still feel quite refreshed thou i keep yawning. Decide to go n slp, tossed around b4 i fell asleep. B4 i knew it, my alarm clock rang. Dang! I've got sch to attend. So feel like poning but got to hang up my labour assignment. Had difficulty doing it, need to ask around for help n luckily Kaiyan helped me to solve 1 of the ques. Hopefully it's correct.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
人
世界很大，双腿太短；身体在这边，心在那边；嘴巴很静，心却很吵；时间在流逝，生命则原地踏步。自我了解是一场不止的旅程。
我们往往只顾着享受眼前的美好而忽略了它已悄悄的产生变化。一味的担心未发生的事情是杞人忧天，可是不去理会正在变化中的事是麻木不仁的。
人就是这么的矛盾。。。
我们往往只顾着享受眼前的美好而忽略了它已悄悄的产生变化。一味的担心未发生的事情是杞人忧天，可是不去理会正在变化中的事是麻木不仁的。
人就是这么的矛盾。。。
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
NAIQNEW
Today, met up wif wen at vivo to buy someone's bdae gifts. Was early, so i went to PageOne to look at some books to kill the time.
In the end, we bought a necklace n scarf.
Went back to compass point to haf Subway. I think i'm beginning to get influenced by Elaine. Nowadays keep thinking of eating Subway. But b4 tt, went to Giant n Cold Storage to get the pie crust for my sis since she's thinking of baking apple crumble. But could not find it.
Hmm, went home at round 8.30. Gal sorry leh. We got to rushed home. Shld haf accompany u for a longer time since we so long nvr see each other le. But currently, i could not reach home too late.. But dun worry, once my exams finished, got lots of time to accompany u n WEME. + i wun forget bout ur MINDS cafe trip.
Who can say where the road goes
Where the day flows
Only time
Who knows
Only time....
女：你有多爱我？
男：多倒像天上的星星
女：可是今晚没有星星咧
男：对阿！星星有时出现，有时却没有。但看不见并不代表不存在，它一直都在，就像我对你的 爱
In the end, we bought a necklace n scarf.
Went back to compass point to haf Subway. I think i'm beginning to get influenced by Elaine. Nowadays keep thinking of eating Subway. But b4 tt, went to Giant n Cold Storage to get the pie crust for my sis since she's thinking of baking apple crumble. But could not find it.
Hmm, went home at round 8.30. Gal sorry leh. We got to rushed home. Shld haf accompany u for a longer time since we so long nvr see each other le. But currently, i could not reach home too late.. But dun worry, once my exams finished, got lots of time to accompany u n WEME. + i wun forget bout ur MINDS cafe trip.
Who can say where the road goes
Where the day flows
Only time
Who knows
Only time....
女：你有多爱我？
男：多倒像天上的星星
女：可是今晚没有星星咧
男：对阿！星星有时出现，有时却没有。但看不见并不代表不存在，它一直都在，就像我对你的 爱
Monday, April 6, 2009
严重失眠
Yesterday, went to bed round 12. But i couldn't slp at all. The 1st time i went to toilet, it's already 1. The next 1.30, followed by 2.15. The last time i checked the clock, it's already 3.30. I keep shifting around until my sis who's sleeping beside me is so pissed tt she woke up n scolded me for making her unable to slp oso. In the end, she went out to watch the tv. By the time she come in around 1 hr later, i still could not slp n i got to wake up at 7.45 to attend lesson at 10.
As expected, i zonked out during Genes lec. This time, i practically slp throughout the lec. Felt so paiseh, cos my head is "dotting around even though i used my hand to support my head...Felt so tired now, so i guess i shld b able to slp quite well tonight...I need the slp.
As expected, i zonked out during Genes lec. This time, i practically slp throughout the lec. Felt so paiseh, cos my head is "dotting around even though i used my hand to support my head...Felt so tired now, so i guess i shld b able to slp quite well tonight...I need the slp.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
试着了解
我现在整个人感到很烦，脾气非常非常的暴躁。对不起，弟弟妹妹，有时无缘无故会对你们生气。
心情很郁闷，有点喘不过气。我讨厌考试，非常讨厌。因为，一接近考试的时候，我就会变成一只囚鸟，一点自由也没有。耳边就会一直出现：‘快点去读书’的声音。我知道你们是希望我能够考到好成绩。可是，我需要呼吸的空间！！！！！！！
我现在最想做的事就是：躺在一大片的草地，什么都不做，听着音乐，看着白云飘过，吹着凉风，让我的烦恼被吹走。。。吹阿吹。。。
心情很郁闷，有点喘不过气。我讨厌考试，非常讨厌。因为，一接近考试的时候，我就会变成一只囚鸟，一点自由也没有。耳边就会一直出现：‘快点去读书’的声音。我知道你们是希望我能够考到好成绩。可是，我需要呼吸的空间！！！！！！！
我现在最想做的事就是：躺在一大片的草地，什么都不做，听着音乐，看着白云飘过，吹着凉风，让我的烦恼被吹走。。。吹阿吹。。。
Saturday, April 4, 2009
屁
刚才。又和父母顶嘴了。我也不想啊。谁会喜欢？只是我控制不了啊。
正要坐下来吃饭的时候，妈第一句话就说：“你看的dvd disc是不是在dvd player里面？”我说：“没有啊。做么？”当时我有点不爽了。莫名其妙，干嘛问这个问题，而且她的语气是凶的lor! 妈接着就讲：“如果在里面，你就糟糕。”Wah kao! 听了之后，一肚子的火就冒出来了。接着就问我的考试是几时，叫我千万最好不要成绩烂到要留级。讲话需要这么绝吗？听了就不爽！不擅长讲门面话就算了，干嘛要讲到这么难听？我不会伤心的吗？
当然，忍无可忍，就顶嘴了。难得，一家人坐下来吃个饭，不能清静一下吗？顶嘴就是我的错咯！！！！！！爸就说你就不能安静让你妈讲啊？？不要在那里haolian, action 多多。赢了lor!!!!
正要坐下来吃饭的时候，妈第一句话就说：“你看的dvd disc是不是在dvd player里面？”我说：“没有啊。做么？”当时我有点不爽了。莫名其妙，干嘛问这个问题，而且她的语气是凶的lor! 妈接着就讲：“如果在里面，你就糟糕。”Wah kao! 听了之后，一肚子的火就冒出来了。接着就问我的考试是几时，叫我千万最好不要成绩烂到要留级。讲话需要这么绝吗？听了就不爽！不擅长讲门面话就算了，干嘛要讲到这么难听？我不会伤心的吗？
当然，忍无可忍，就顶嘴了。难得，一家人坐下来吃个饭，不能清静一下吗？顶嘴就是我的错咯！！！！！！爸就说你就不能安静让你妈讲啊？？不要在那里haolian, action 多多。赢了lor!!!!
Friday, April 3, 2009
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
该如何
我想了很久 该如何说
有一些困惑 在心里头
努力 谈过
但始终还觉得 了解的不够
因为你的笑 所以快乐
因为你沉默 所以失落
快告诉我你还想要 什么
快告诉我还能为你 做些什么
觉得有股失落感，怎么挥都挥不掉，就这样一直往心里头涌出来。
今天当妹妹跟我说不必那么认真的寻找新房子时，有点震撼。原来是因为爸妈有可能不能在原来的摊位继续做下去时。第一个感觉是“害怕”和“混乱”。
“混乱”—发生了什么事？只知道爸最近都跟我说他面临很大的烦恼。一直问他，他都不说。所以当我知道原因时，坦白的说，我有点生气。为何要憋住不说呢？
“害怕" — 不能继续，就意味着说爸得跟别人打工。这样薪水不是会下降很多吗？我得承认有一部份是因为个人自私的原因。我怕我不能。。。很多个不能。更怕像小时候，被亲戚看不起。那种感觉不好受。我们是苦尽甘来的，而不是一步登天。突然，觉得自己就站在十字路口的中央，彷徨无助。又仿佛是个无助的婴儿，需要人家的安抚。
I need to cool down 1st, really haf a tok wif my father before deciding wad to do. The selfish thinking of mine will go away soon, as long as i sort out my mind. The decision made by the boss better not come true if not i will hate you n once i hate you, it's hard to change my mind. It will always b there. Unless i say so!
一个字：烦！
有一些困惑 在心里头
努力 谈过
但始终还觉得 了解的不够
因为你的笑 所以快乐
因为你沉默 所以失落
快告诉我你还想要 什么
快告诉我还能为你 做些什么
觉得有股失落感，怎么挥都挥不掉，就这样一直往心里头涌出来。
今天当妹妹跟我说不必那么认真的寻找新房子时，有点震撼。原来是因为爸妈有可能不能在原来的摊位继续做下去时。第一个感觉是“害怕”和“混乱”。
“混乱”—发生了什么事？只知道爸最近都跟我说他面临很大的烦恼。一直问他，他都不说。所以当我知道原因时，坦白的说，我有点生气。为何要憋住不说呢？
“害怕" — 不能继续，就意味着说爸得跟别人打工。这样薪水不是会下降很多吗？我得承认有一部份是因为个人自私的原因。我怕我不能。。。很多个不能。更怕像小时候，被亲戚看不起。那种感觉不好受。我们是苦尽甘来的，而不是一步登天。突然，觉得自己就站在十字路口的中央，彷徨无助。又仿佛是个无助的婴儿，需要人家的安抚。
I need to cool down 1st, really haf a tok wif my father before deciding wad to do. The selfish thinking of mine will go away soon, as long as i sort out my mind. The decision made by the boss better not come true if not i will hate you n once i hate you, it's hard to change my mind. It will always b there. Unless i say so!
一个字：烦！
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