Pondering....

It's been so long since i last wrote anything here. Here i am, clearing away the cobwebs. Ever since i was posted to my branch, i feel tt i dun haf much life. Everyday when i reached home, i feel so tired, by 10.30, i've to be on my bed. In the past, i usually toss n turn b4 i drift to sleep, but nowadays i usually zonked out when i hit the sack. The worse part is tt the real hard work for my job hasn't start n i'm already so exhausted. I've no idea how i'm going to survive when the work pressure start pouring in.

Yesterday while riding S's car, when he said made me wonder again whether i've really chosen the correct career path. I dun see myself going far in this line. I dun even noe whether i'm suited for sales job. I wan to challenge my inner quiet self but it seems impossible. The pay may be good, but is money really the only motivation. It makes me ponder hard. This morning,while helping out at dad's place, i told him tt i may quit my job after my bond ends after 9 months or a yr later....

I shall see how everything goes. It seems tt it is still too early to sae such things. Meanwhile i shld juz treasure all those precious moments wif my frens, especially WEME, the best i could ever wished for :)

catchy

Dilemma

Super tired from sch stuff. Largely is my fault lar. Always wait till the lastest min b4 moving my backside to do the assignment. An engineering assignment is supposed to b due tmr, i managed to finish by today. U noe when i start doing it??? Yesterday!!!! Haiz....habits r hard to change

My tertiary education coming to an end soon. I m happy cos no more mugging to do, but at the same time, kinda scared. I'm afraid of not being able to find a job. I've absolutely no idea wad i like n wad kind of job i like. My mentality now is.....juz quickly find a job, gain some experience then moved my ass off to another job if i dun enjoy the current one. Yes! I'm tt bad! It's true tt I've no idea wad i want now, but I'm very clear bout wad i wan in the future....

you and me

Add Oil....

Elaine, Here's a song for u :) Stay Happy n dun fret. WHEN LIFE GIVES U LEMONS, MAKE LEMONADE OUT OF IT.

I can't say i can share ur burden cos no one can, except for urself. Cos u're the oni one who can 101% sure of how u're feeling rite now. No one can! So jiayou!!!! But we are all here for u.


P.S: Song is dedicated to Man n Wen too :)

wohoo

I'm going to like tis week very much!!!! My parents aren't working for 5 whole days cos the whole shop is undergoing renovations. SO hopefully, after the renovations, our business will scale an even greater heights. Much appreciated!!!!

Thou they still need to deliver goods to some customers who r in the f&b industry, but they juz need to go to the family's factory located at the Senoko for a mere 3 hrs. Over there, the workers will help them to make sure tt their order r already done when they reached. A breeze.....

We'll haf more time to interact wif them, enjoying the time like a normal family where we'll haf our dinner together :) weet....

HAPPY CNY....

It's almost 1 month since i last posted a post. Time really passes very fast. it's already the 3rd day of CNY. I looked forward to CNY very much as this is the oni time tt my parents will b at home wif us 24hrs.

As usual, the 1st day was spent visiting both ah ma's hse. Playing black jack. N eating steamboat.

2nd day was spent having steamboat over at our fatory's office. As the table is too small, all of us end up standing around the table to eat. Kind of nice n cosy...N this is the 1st time all cousins gather around to talk, laugh for such a long time. Also played blak jack. Won $6. Thou not much, but still happy.

Just now, juz came back from my No.2 auntie's hse. Ate steamboat again. Tok to my cousin who juz changed her job. Something tt she said made me reconsider my options.hmm...it's time to think carefully.

Alright dinner at home. N yes. IT'S STEAMBOAT AGAIN!!! LOL>>>>

我以为

1st birthday

Just came back from celebrating 外婆's birthday. Actually, i've no idea when her's actual bdae date. Ask my mom, she oso dunno. Apparently, in the past, it isn't a norm to celebrate parents' birthday.

My parents haf to attend a wedding dinner, so juz the 3 of us.

i like...

In a few more days, holidays will be officially over. Geez, tis holiday seems to be especially short. It seems tt i haven gotten any rest at all.

Bidding for tis round is especially troublesome.
I'm being very ficle-minded. Keep changing the mods to take.
No interesting mod to do at all. Very the sianz

Merry Christmas

Christmas eve n part of christmas was spent by painting the ceiling leading from the doorway to the prayer altar. Last yr, i painted the whole ceiling by myself + 2 toilets ceiling. My hands almost became paralysed. Luckily for tis yr, both my siblings helped out. Especially my lil' bro, who used the roller to paint the celing, after i said tt i dun wan to get speckled by the paint. In the end, his whole arm, face n specs were all covered wif paint.

Lunch was bbq, gladly prepared by my sis who went to buy most of the ingredients. Lunch was filled laughter. I'm glad tt laughter is coming back after wad our whole family had endured for the past 3 weeks. Horrible weeks n we still shudder upon the thoughts. Although, i wun sae tt all is well since nth has been confirmed but i firmly believe n hope tt we wun endure such trauma anymore.

Tt shall b my wish for tis christmas: No more hardships n everything will still proceed as we had 1st planned for.

Wad the....

Initially, i was quite happy with my results for tis sem, since i din get any c's n my cap score did improved even thou i din really study for my chi, gem n socio mods (It's not tt i'm lazy, but really there isn't any stuff for me to study for). But then, it was dampened when my parents asked for my results b4 i even told them. When they told me tt their customer cum spy aka "the professor" ( my siblings confirmed noe who he's) daughter told him her results the very 1st min the results were released. I'm becoming to loathe "the professor" even more. I hate it when my parents mentioned bout his kids. Damn it! Wad's the point of having very high IQ but absolutely 0 or shld i sae -ve EQ?

Steamboat

Went out for stemboat wif the gals - Wen. It's hard to haf all 4 of us gathering together since 3 r on shift basis. Nevetheless, i still get to meet the other 2. It's been ages since i last saw them. It's such great joy to see them again. Pardon me for being not so enthu at the beginning. There's lots of things bothering me.

It's gd tt we're having steamboat since it's been raining for the past few days. Warming up.

Finally, i'm seeing some glimpse of light n sincerely hope tt things will carry on as we've planned for. No more hiccups. PLS.

Next up: looking forward to the post christmas gathering :)

Shattered

Literally gone. I noe tt i should juz let it go. It's easy to sae, but hard to put it into action. I need time to recover. It's like i'm dreaming, where i see myself having tt thing, juz b4 i could get hold to it, i woke up. Then, reality starts sinking in. I could not see it anymore.

It's heart-wrenching, i don't noe how many times i've been silently crying. I think i need a really long time b4 i can accept it.

唯独让时间将记忆慢慢的冲淡。

I swear tt i will definitely fulfil this wish in the future. DEFINITELY.

Happy????

Contradiction. Juz like how i'm feeling for the past few days. I wonder y u dun get wad i sae. Always twisting my words, to the extent tt i had enuf. U're feeling sensitive, so do i. So dun keep expecting me to understand u but dun gif a heck to how i feel exactly.

Seriously fed-up.

What should i do???

No, i shouldn't sae i'm feeling down. In fact, i'm feeling very scared. Very very. But i can't show it out. The future look very bleak. Lots of uncertainties is hovering in front of us. I don't want to lose anything. At all...